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Alone Again
02:52
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Let me set the scene, this was a sheltered teen
Autistic queer from catholic school taught not to question things
Who was scared of cigarettes and weed til age 15
It wasn't peer pressure, it was the PTSD
Now that drugs were in the mix, people were scary
As if people weren't hard enough to read already
Pinned against a wall, belittled for stating their needs
The autistic queer decides to just stick to weed
That was the most that they could do, 'cause they were surrounded
There are no lines in the sand when you're surrounded
There are no lines in the sand if it's inconvenient
They'd rather have no lines than be alone again
They'd rather have no lines than be a burden
They'd rather have no lines than be alone again
What's the line between "grown" and "healthy"?
They find themself asking questions at every party
Like who's who behind closed doors? Whose behavior can they read?
They just wanna play their music without fearing the streets
But they shut the fuck up, like they were told to do
When given choices for comfort, seems unreal and new
As if people are secretly resenting them
As if people view them as a sidenote in the end
They think, as if people are that considerate
As if people don't think I kill the buzz
As if I have the right to feel this way
As if people wouldn't be furious
Do people disagree that I'm a burden?
Do people care when I find myself alone again?
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19 v 23
02:39
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It was back in 2017, when I was 19
You hovered on the internet oh so frequently
One day I needed help
And you offered it to me
It was pretty much immediately
Hindsight's 20/20
And right off the bat
Red flags were a-plenty
I didn't want that drink
I'm not a hipster girl
You had an idea of me
The rest makes me wanna hurl
YOU GOT SO DRUNK, you thought I owed you
GOT SO DRUNK, convinced me to help you
GOT SO DRUNK, thought it'd be cool to say you used to have a crush
You trapped me in a corner
As an excuse for some more time
I said I wanted to go home
Then you really crossed the line
Guilt-trips and apologies
While putting your arm around me
I'd never do that at 23
Alarms went off in my head
Whenever I felt your touch near
Is it so they don't mess with me?
Or do you like how it appears?
You've called me pretty so many times
Tagging me in posts like it's the time of our lives
I'm starting to think "used to" was a lie
You trapped me til 2am
As an excuse for some more time
I said I wanted to go home
Then you really crossed the line
Now I'm told by someone dear to me
That you have a history
And I wonder what you would've done to me
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Take Me Back
03:43
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Take me back to the indie pop show
Back in San Francisco
Where I learned that self-love can be practiced
Forms over time, like a new habit
Take me back to feeling well
With a close friend in a cheap hotel
'Cause it's been a whole month since then
And I just ran out of my meds
I thought and thought and thought and thought
Of making the call, and each time, I forgot
I fought and fought and fought and fought
To make it through, and to give up
Take me right back to the times when
I didn't know how to depend
It's so easy to just give in
When no one's on the other end
Take me right back to the bottom
I don't think they saw me sink
I'll be sinking, down by the flotsam
From underwater, I see them, they're not here for me
I thought and thought and thought and thought
Of breaking a glass, but I loved the staff too much
I fought and fought and fought and fought
Determined to give up, but nothing was sharp enough
That's not an accomplishment
Not an accomplishment
Not an accomplishment
Not an accomplishment
I would've given in
Would've given in
Would've given in
Would've given in
I'm not too smart for this
Not too smart for this
Not too smart for this
Not too smart for this
I am at risk
I am at risk
I am at risk
I am at risk
I am at risk
I am at risk
I am at risk
I am at risk
I am at risk
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Brianna Carmel Sacramento, California
DIY singer-songwriter with a folk punk soul. Mainly a vocalist who enjoys fucking around on guitar and ukulele. 1/2 of Blooming Heads + 1/3 of little tiny knife.
Active in the Sacramento music scene since 2012.
Brianna Carmel recommends:
Destined to Eat Your Flesh [STR-42]
by Lokeigh
Tyler's music has deeply touched my heart ever since I met him in 2016. Favorite track is Tag Your Triggers.
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Xahferd: putting the bed in bedroom pop. I featured on their debut single, Make It Work.
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Octomammoth's cover of SELECT?, from The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, completely melted my heart.
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